imagine my voice saying these words; then take another xanax.

is this the new thing?

i wish it would work FOR me, for once, rather than against me. this is the second time i’ve had an agency cancel an interview because they’ve decided to hire someone right away.  like, who are these people that are so fucking awesome at interviews that they just decimate the other canidates? what are their techniques? threats? i could get into that.

it’s okay. it’s okay. it’s all okay.

i mean, i like to think i’m pretty damn good at interviews. i think fast, have good eye-contact, answer delicately when needed and honestly when appreciated. apparently there are people out there, however, who can get hired simply by showing up. is there something i’m missing?i want to be part of that group.

jobs. how do you find them? it’s not finding them, it’s actually getting them to want you. like a flirtation doomed to fail, always ending in spilling your ice water all over the table just as the meal arrives. you showed up, but now everybody just wants you to leave.